Reality is finally better than my dreams

背叛 - 曹格

Thu, 30 Jul 2009 13:36:17 GMT

雨
不停落下来
花
怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人
欣赏悲哀

爱
只剩下无奈
我
一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹著空白
缺了一块
就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句
Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管
只要你能愉快

心
有一句感慨
我
还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在

Beat it, just.

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 04:50:51 GMT

Everytime I want to blog about something that's nagging at me, I can't exactly pin-point it and I end up writing nonsense that isn't really exactly what I want to say.

Sloth is a sin, sloth is a sin, sloth is a sin.

/i'll love you forever. Forever is over.

I don't think I'll be sleeping tonight.

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 20:01:02 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9oUqiKuQMls&feature=related
This is so amazing.

Okay I'm so dead, it's 4.40?

Ne-Yo

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 17:31:33 GMT

Style of your hair,
shape of your eyes and your nose,
the way you stare
As if you see, right through to my soul,

It's your left hand and the way
that it's not quite as big as your right,
the way you stand in the mirror
before we go out at night,

Our quiet time,
your beautiful mind,

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

The way you sweet smell
lingers when you leave a room,
(you leave a room)
Stories you tell as we lay
in bed all afternoon.
(all afternoon)

I dreamed you now every night
in my mind is where we meet.
(my mind is where we meet)
and when I'm awake
staring at pictures of you asleep.

Touching your face,
invading you space.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

Oooh, and you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.
And you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.

Lyrics

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 10:36:30 GMT

Just have a little patience
I'm still hurting from a love I lost
I'm feeling your frustration
Any minute all the pain will stop.

Just hold me close inside your arms tonight
Don't be too hard on my emotions.

'Cause I
Need time
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
The one that I can always depend.

I'll try to be strong
Believe me I'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me.

'Cause I
Need time
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience.

'Cause the scars run so deep
It's been hard but I have to believe
Just have a little patience

'Cause I
I just need time

Have a little patience
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I’m still healing
Just try and have a little patience

My aching heart

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 14:39:05 GMT

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
And more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best,
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love

I wish you love.

I had a dream,

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 16:59:26 GMT

that we, you and i, lay side by side,
in a meadow of gold, around us
skies of the brightest blue, and fields of the richest green.
Where the sweetest butterflies reside
and our hearts beat in synchrony;
Thump-thump, thump-thump.
The steady pitter-patter of the soft rain and our slow uneven breaths
somehow assure us that we are here for each other.
We do not speak, but our hands inch closer
and closer
and when your hand touches mine, on that cool summers' day,
I feel complete because you are with me.
And you are mine.
We are but two mere souls in a world much too chaotic to understand,
but I am with you, and in our promises,
you are mine.

Goodbye,

Sun, 21 Jun 2009 16:05:42 GMT

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
~~Can't you just let me be?~~
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot try the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I have certainly learnt much from my friend,

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 01:38:23 GMT

"The most important being to accept what we cannot change and let go of anger and bitterness, for neither will help us. In fact, they are maladaptive as they cause distress and serve no purpose... It is amazing how much of our suffering can be influenced by our state of mind."
- Adapted from An Everyday Hero, The Straits Times

Lyrics

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 13:21:09 GMT

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real

Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

Lyrics

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 17:01:09 GMT

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There is so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

---
Goodnight.

Never Good Enough.

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 11:56:47 GMT

"What's wrong with Julie?"
"...She's not Rachel."

Why can't life be perfect?

Sun, 25 Jan 2009 19:07:49 GMT

When arguments break the peace, music eases the soul.

...
Because then there wouldn't be anything to learn from.

"The journey of life is like sailing through the wind.
At times it'll get rough and you'll be sent in the wrong direction, but you can't give up.
You may not be able to direct the wind, but you can always adjust the sails."